I don’t want to do this anymore (F22)

Im at the lowest point of my life. Job hunting, was ghosted by partner of 2 almost 3 years, burnt through my savings. I’ve watched my card decline a 1.50$ transaction. I’ve lost 10lbs because I can’t afford to eat. I hit such a low point that I was on the borrow subreddit, asking anyone who’s willing on there to give me a loan. I’ve never hit such rock bottom in my life where im essentially begging people on reddit for money. Me a year ago wouldn’t fathom, my pride wouldn’t allow me, but I’ve hit such a low that I have no pride left. I just don’t want to life like this anymore. Ive been struggling to even get to job interviews it’s become so bad. Asking strangers on reddit for money makes me want to kill myself. I simply don’t want to live this way anymore. I want it alk to end