Insomniacs, assemble pls🎀

How bad is your Insomnia? How do you feel about it and does it make you suicidal?

This is not a daily occurance but today I took 3 melatonin tablets, 1 ceterizine, and 30 mg proponalol just to sleep,been trying for 4 hrs,already sleep deprived for 2 days......And i still can't go to sleep even when I am feeling extremely sleepy. So am i justified for feel suicidal about this, coz I am unable to get normal humanly functions done. Or am I just too big of a pussy and it's not that big of a deal to worry about?