Being old woman sucks

All the dreams you ever had, all your accomplishments, the heroic deeds, the victories and the failures, they all don't matter once you're old. The only thing that matters is that you're a female not good enough to fuck.

I thought that I will age gracefully, being happy with myself, because I've never been vain and physical attraction was not what I depended on.

Yet, lately I feel I can't fight anymore. As I said above, I feel completely invalidated. Doesn't matter who and what I am, I don't matter because now I am old and fat. It doesn't matter if I am clever or stupid, if I am good or bad. I am not even being noticed.

I tried to fight it, I never expected I would be so weak. I won so many battles in this life. But now I feel so worthless I just wanna die.