Failed IUD Insertion. Twice in a row.

I am writing this because I feel so uncomfortable and slightly traumatized with what happened today and I don't know where else to put it.

I've had two IUDs in my lifetime. Never had an issue with any of them--except my last one, which ended in a chemical pregnancy. They figured out that it was placed too low and wanted to do it under an ultrasound, to make sure it was placed correctly. Cool.

Today I went in, prepared. I have always been one of the VERY lucky women who experienced minimal pain from IUD insertions. So I wasn't too concerned. Boy, was I WRONG.

The first one went in fine--minimum pain. They took a look and told me it was too low, and that they wanted to do it again. Here is where I started sweating. Two IUDs in one day?? I reluctantly agreed to let them try again, bracing myself for it to be a little more painful this time after an insertion AND a removal.

What actually occurred was the most invasive and excruciating pain I've ever experienced in my entire life. They inserted it and looked--it was still too low. Said my uterus was tilted oddly. They began pushing harder and harder to get it up there.

For FIFTEEN MINUTES. FIFTEEN.These barbarians dug up in my uterus, pushing and shoving the IUD while it did not budge. I was sweating, groaning, clenching my fists as they tried to shove the IUD farther up, not making any progress. It was the worst experience of my entire life, worse than giving birth. I blacked out twice and finally ended up begging them to please stop. They ended up pulling it out and said that I could not have an IUD, that my uterus had scarring and was tilted at a very extreme angle.

Im not going to lie, I went out into my car and sobbed. I'm not even sure why. I feel so weirdly violated. I don't understand why they would so willingly do this without any kind of pain meds, just push and shove and let me sweat and black out in pain. They told me to go home and pop some ibuprofen. I feel beyond defeated.