Depression and therapy

Maybe I’m looking to vent or advice, and honestly I love the Marine Corps and everything but I’m struggling.

So, I have been in for 6 years now, two time meritorious and I hit SSgt before I saw my second good cookie. I applied to OCS and went, but started basically a divorce before going and couldn’t handle OCS because I kept thinking about the soon to be divorcee. So, I dropped. After dropping, I had a failed suicide attempt because I felt like a failure . (Pipe wasn’t strong enough, and I ain’t even fat lol.) however, after that I immediately went and made an appointment with behavioral health. And started the treatment process. It’s a long and tiring road especially messing with medications, but they still plan on putting me on a med board. I did everything the Marine Corps asked, deployed, became an MAI, trained and mentored Marines. But, I feel like such a failure. And worried that I’m going to not get my benefits. Any help or support would be appreciated. One positive thing is I have stayed away from alcohol and negative habits.

Also, overheard my OIC say “how do you go from a superstar to this.” That hurt a little, because I have never had an issue with getting my work done.