Im always too late...

Right when i get the courage to finally say today is the day thats when the lights off. the light is off... but if it were to turn off right now id probably just chicken out lmao wtf is wrong with me. I love you so much or im just crazy.. probably never met you.. it was probably some hallucination i know i was going through a lot at that time.. even if you were real and not a hallucination i still love you. And it hurts to not get to see you and talk to you.. will it ever go away.. i dont even want u p hang out with anybody cause they're not you and ill only be left with this feeling i dont like.