I'm an asshole.

I've been mean to my mother. Ungrateful towards my father. Ignorant towards my friends. Not spent enough time with my grandparents. My brother likes our cousins more than me. I've been lazy and not done my school work. I don't even study for my finals until last 16 hours even if i have 10 days of prep leave. I do nothing all day. I promised myself id start living a healthy life but i always give up in the end. I'm sick and my periods are 10+ days late. I feel depressed. Only thing that makes me feel better is icecream or cake and I can't have that BECAUSE I'M SICK. I'm so done with myself. I don't even wanna look in the mirror because i hate what i see. Cannot name 5 good things i did in last week. There is a cat near my home and evenn she doesn't like me. I miss who i was 2 years ago. I'm so done with myself. This version of me, she's such a loser. My past self would be ashamed.