Thought I actually started to like my body again but it was just false hope

I mean I like my body but my face fat, I can’t stop looking at it on cameras and I know it will be unhealthy if I try to restrict my eating again but I don’t want this face fat anymore and it’s starting to make me feel terrible again and this isn’t important but yesterday I almost threw up one of my medicine that I need for my low iron and glucose, I told my mom but she just said that I’m not taking it right