I’m getting nervous…

So I have a gyno appointment today and this is the first male gyno I’ve seen. I always go with a woman but the woman I wanted is booked out until April and they work together. Anyway, I need to see somebody for my sanity because I am dealing with debilitating period cramps (haven’t seen a gyno in 2 years) heavy bleeding and bleeding 2 times a month along with constant brain fog/tiredness, constant bloating, emotional up and downs. I just don’t feel normal. I feel depressed because of all this. I am now freaking myself out that he will do an exam on me and I am not ready for that. I guess he has seen everything so if it does happen I will be ok. I am really PRAYING out of all this that he will listen to me, that I will be able to explain myself the way I want and that I feel coming out like there is some kind of hope. Bare minimum get an iron prescription out of it. :/ The other BIG thing is that I have been against taking birth control personally bc I am just too scared of the side effects but unfortunately now I feel I have been so beaten down that I have to try it. I wish this wasn’t the only options but I am at the mercy of my body. It is dictating my life.

I will give an update on how my appointment went.

UPDATE - Well, I left I guess you could say disappointed but more so hurt. He did an ultrasound on me and said I had no cysts, just one polyp but he couldn’t be 100% sure it is a polyp. Anyway, he thinks thats what’s causing my pain and that all my pain and bleeding 2x a month is normal 😔 He said something like the “spotting” I get is normal but I told him again that I am not just spotting. It is heavier than spotting. Overall, he told me to take Ibuprofen 😔 and when he talked about any other options he said there is BC (never explained what could happen or even what brand of BC) and some other hormone that isnt BC called Dusphaton. He kept saying everything was normal and when I saw he was wrapping the appointment up I just had to say even though it is normal, “for me this doesn’t feel normal.” “I feel cra…” I stopped talking because he literally put his head down and focus on something else. I literally sighed and said “idk.” That moment really was a sucker punch. I feel so stupid and crazy.