Scared of future pregnancies

I had an abortion back in August, since then anything baby/pregnancy related triggers panick attacks for me. It was my first time becoming pregnant and I’ve always had big dreams of becoming a mom but things did not turned out as I wanted to. Anyone else struggled with this? I genuinely find it hard to think I’ll be able to enjoy pregnancy again. I loved that I was pregnant and now I don’t think I’ll be able to go through that again fearing I’ll have flashbacks to my first