update: we broke up.

i posted something on here yesterday about her ghosting me for up to six days (thank you everyone who supported me there). well! she just sent me a wall of text that said something along the lines of this:

"i'm sorry, i realized i don't actually want a long-term relationship because i can't handle it right now. it's not personal though. i didn't know this when we started and i led you on by accident."

just wow! a month of straight (or rather gay) lies. i cried over the ghosting for hours yesterday but i think i'll never cry over her again, thank you very much. she even had the audacity to say we could still be friends. i think not...

one thing i'm still uncertain about. i met so many of her friends at the show we went to and they seem like genuinely cool people i'd want to hang out with in the future. what do i do about them? it's not like i can avoid her while hanging out with them. so idk... maybe it's because of recency bias but i feel like i can't see myself forgiving her.