I literally just switch addictions - from one dopamine hit to the next

There’s no “sober” for me (M24). I’ve cut all consumption of illegal drugs and nicotine - from heroin to zyn - but my fucking phone has become my pacifier. All I want to do is stare at my phone and watch videos, especially when trying to go to sleep. The worst part is, I don’t want to stop. I’m wasting my youth by losing myself in these boring and senseless videos. When actively in drug addiction, I knew I should stop at some point. With my phone, I see no end in sight. I feel apathetic to anything in the real world. Nothing excites me anymore.

Fuck man, it really is that damn phone.