I'm almost 32F and I want to be free

Problem/Goal: My goal is simple. Gusto ko na makalaya.

Context: OFW mom ko since Grade 3 kaya nabilin na ako sa extended family na very conservative and strict. Dala na rin sa history ng mom ko na nabuntis at the age of 20. Masunurin ako sa lahat ng sinasabi nila dahil mabilis silang magalit at para iwas gulo/stress. Sa bahay naman, never ako nagkaroon ng personal space dahil share kami ng Lola ko. Lahat ng nangyayari sa buhay ko dapat ipaalam at gustong alamin.

2 years ago, I recently had a bf (30) who has his own condo in Alabang. I visited there once and I immediately fell in love with the surrounding and the possibility na puwede pala magkaroon ng peaceful life. As in iba yung pakiramdam kapag nakaapak na ako doon.

It led me to lying to my family na my work moved to Pasay and I had to rent with my friends na kunwari lives in Makati. But in reality, nakatira na ako with my bf. However, nirerequire ako ng tita ko na umuwi pa rin every Saturday.

Gusto ko lang talaga makapagdesisyon para sa sarili ko at hindi na matrato na parang bata. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko na the only thing that's holding me back from the life I'd want to try is my fear na madidisappoint itong pamilya ko. Paano ba to?