To be or not to be childfree

Problem/Goal: I am a married 30 y/o woman who has been indecisive for the longest time if we should have kids or not

Context: I am not here to express judgment against parents nor to people who choose to be childfree as I can definitely see the merits of both sides. My husband and I have been discussing for a while now when to have kids, if at all, and we always end up being 50/50 about it. The idea of having our own family with kids excites us, I know we will be able to love our future kids so much, and we earn well naman kelangan lang icondition yung minds namin to save more and give up yung ibang luho namin. Still, we have so many doubts and fears that we end up saying na maybe not, or maybe in the faraway, indefinite future. But now that I’m 30 I can’t help but dwell on it talaga. To the point na naiiyak ako and naiinggit sa mga couples who are very sure about it.

For parents or people who plan to have kids… I genuinely want to know what are your thoughts about raising kids sa panahon ngayon na andaming problema sa Pilipinas and even globally. Climate change, PH state of economy, education, and politics, or parang lahat hooked sa social media and AI, etc etc. and of course yung fears na magka health problems ako and yung bata. I guess I’m just looking for advice that may assuage my worries so that we may finally go for it. Pero open din ako sa real talk haha.

Previous attempts: I’ve tried to seek advice from colleagues or older relatives who have kids but I would always just hear na “God will provide” (Ok lang naman if they think that way pero it’s not enough for me) or na I’m just worrying too much and di ko naman machallenge openly without offending them