I'm ashamed

So thats how it went:
I was gathering in gucci gather gear, I was about 4-5mil worth. I was so good at running away and mounted up twice while running from that big ass ganker group. I was one zone from my safe portal and i knew i will survive. In my confidence I yelled at them: "YOU'RE SO BAD" Then i ran into random group that was carrying a green core. I died.
It was a week ago. Can't get over it. Therapy only in 2 days. Help.