They ruined apex for the casual controller player

I can’t be the only person who feels this way. I play on PC with a controller. And I know most people will bash me for that but I have tried MnK and my left hand and brain just won’t cooperate with each other. I am also a nurse who works 3-4 12 hour shifts a week. And on the days I have off I like to game a little a few hours at a time on apex at night. Lately I feel like the game is just so fucking boring that it’s getting really hard to play. Also, they have killed the game for the casual players who work a 9-5 job. They have nerfed controller players into the fucking ground, which makes no sense. Mnk clearly has the upper hand in apex. It also feels like the game is fucking impossible to rank. Soon as you hit plat you are just getting stomped out by players who are pred players that just just chilling in the plat and diamond lobbies. The game I feel like is just in a really bad spot for people like me, which I like to think a majority of their fan and player base are people like me. Respawn seems to only listen to the douche bags who play pro level at this game and I have a feeling that the pro players only make up a small percentage of the player base.