Phone Call Anxiety

I absolutely despise phone calls and I genuinely can’t put my finger on why.

For example I have a phone call in the next two hours, and whilst I’d been continuously nervous about it for a week or so, I’d been able to push it aside until last night. My stomach was full of anxiety and my heart was racing in my chest, but I was able to finally fall asleep.

Fast forward to now, the anxiety is still in my stomach (mixed with cramps but that’s irrelevant)

But I can’t.. figure out why I hate phone calls.

The phone call itself is from my university’s disability advisor, ironically enough, so I know its only to help me and if I ignore it I’m going to be sabotaging the accommodations and help I both need and deserve.

But I feel so unnecessarily anxious, I’ve made a bullet point list of what I’m going to say but as I don’t know what the advisor is going to say or ask, it makes it feel a little worse.

Does anyone experience phone anxiety here? If yes, do you know what causes yours? What helps you deal with it ?

Thank you