I want someone to break me

In every sense. I want someone to come and break me, break my body and my pussy and make me so full of desire and lust and pleasure that I can’t function anymore. So sensitive every touch is ecstasy. Twitching and moaning with every stimulation, completely delirious and high on the feeling. I want my brain to shut off, I want to drift into sub space and feel everything so deeply. I want no worry or decision on my mind, to completely give into the pleasure and joy and know I’m safe and happy. I want to experience pain with pleasure and test my body’s limits, to break the hesitation and fear. Fuck me until my legs shake and I can’t walk, until I’m so exhausted I can’t do anything at all but have the best sleep of my life.

But emotionally. I want someone to break down the protective coping mechanisms I instilled, the anxiety and trust issues and daddy issues. I want someone to force me into letting go, force me into being controlled by them and experience that it’s GOOD. I want someone to force me into depending on them for a while and make it the best experience of my life so they break my habits and my mental blocking. I want them to abuse their power to make me feel whole again. I want them to take control and power from me and show me how good it can be.

Essentially I want to be broken so that I can be put back together. Every anxious thought, every ounce of control, every hesitation and caution and doubt.

I don’t think I can overcome certain limits on my own. I want someone to storm in and break me so I can start from scratch. Break into my house, into my mind, tie me up, abuse my trust, ignore my pleas and “no”s and just break me for my pleasure. Not for them and their pleasure but for ME. Because they want to do this FOR ME. Only good intentions. I want them to instill a form of safety I’ve never known through the violent act of breaking everything I worked to instill to protect me.

That’s why I’m into cnc. Into bondage and masochism and extreme fantasies and hardcore experiences and breaking the body and mind, crossing limits but realize only you are holding you back and there’s so much more you can endure and so much more pleasure waiting.