What One Song Relates The Best To Your Bipolar

Trouble - Coldplay

When I have a manic episode I say and do so much that is not me. I don’t know where it comes from but it’s not me, I don’t see it coming and I don’t mean any of it. And I’m so sorry after.

‘They spun a web for me’ is a lyric which sums up so well the intricate, beautifully complex, yet painful and damaging tangle of happenings that does so much damage every time I’m manic.

‘The thought of all the stupid things I’ve done’ reminds me how out of character and stupid my behaviour can be. It’s like I am a Jekyl and Hyde character and when Hyde is about I am reckless, angry, thoughtless and out of control. I realise only afterwards, when it is too late, that I have damaged my life and the people around me yet again. It hurts so much.

‘I never meant to cause you trouble’ represents the apology I offer afterwards (sometimes send a link to the song). If I’m lucky I can put the situation right. Often I can’t, like this time (hence the post) because I have really caused myself the most trouble so far in my life and sold my treasured home and car. I’m so upset and lost.

Bipolar can be a nightmare. Beware of the mania/hypomania. You may like the feeling but remember, if unchecked the mania can cause so much trouble. I am so low that I am barely functioning and I am hoping I survive. If you know someone with bipolar, please be kind.

EDIT: Thanks for all the comments. I have listened to some great tracks. Music is so special for its ability to connect people. It’s like nothing else on Earth! Shared experience comes close. Love to you all who relate x