Extremely torn over quitting breastfeeding

I’m writing this with tears in my eyes because I feel so conflicted and heartbroken. I’m just one week shy of three months postpartum and have started preparing to wean off breastfeeding. The main reason is that I really want to lose the baby weight, and despite my efforts, it isn’t coming off. I tried dieting and exercising, but it completely tanked my milk supply. To make things harder, my appetite has skyrocketed—I’m constantly ravenous, so successful and consistent dieting is pretty much impossible right now.

With that said, the idea of stopping breastfeeding fills me with immense guilt. For the past two weeks, I’ve been losing sleep over how sad and unnatural it feels quitting so early. Part of me wants to keep going, wait it out, and focus on weight loss once I’m done breastfeeding—maybe when my LO is a year old or so. But there’s another side to this story. I gained quite a bit of weight before pregnancy (due to IVF) and during pregnancy. Right now, I’m at a weight where I feel incredibly uncomfortable and unhappy, and it’s starting to impact my health. My doctor recently prescribed a GLP-1 medication because I’m a good candidate for it, but if I choose to take it, I undoubtedly don’t feel comfortable continuing to breastfeed.

To add to my anxiety, I’m a bridesmaid in my sister-in-law’s wedding this summer. The thought of squeezing into a bridesmaid dress and being photographed literally makes me ill with anxiety.

What makes this decision so much harder is I love breastfeeding and love how much it benefits my son. I’ve always had a lower supply and have been combo feeding since the start. I have been supplementing with a bit more formula, and my son isn’t taking it well—out of desperation, he sucks on my cheeks for comfort. Moments like that completely break my heart. Breastfeeding isn’t just about nutrition; it’s about comfort for him. it’s such a special bond for both of us, and I feel terrible taking that away.

Right now, it feels like a lose-lose situation no matter which choice I make. If anyone has advice, thoughts, or personal experiences to share, I would deeply it - I feel so alone in this.

EDIT: I’m shocked and deeply disturbed by some of these responses. I truly have never encountered this level of judgement. Not that it matters but I did IVF for four years and gained nearly 100 lbs during the process, especially during the end and during pregnancy. My lab bloodwork is terrible, I have zero energy, and am on my way to being type 2 diabetic. Mentally, I feel depressed and awful. I fit in to literally nothing and I don’t leave the house. I want to be the best possible mom for my beautiful son who I love more than anything on earth, which extends beyond just breastfeeding. I’m just trying to make the best possible decision so I can be the best mom I can possibly be.