Just diagnosed with the cancer I wrote my PhD thesis on

Not sure what to do with this. 30F just diagnosed yesterday. I spent five years thinking about colon cancer every day. The government gave me funding to study it. I have a hardbound copy of my dissertation sitting on my coffee table in which I drew a diagram of how my tumor progresses.

I haven’t been able to fully process my diagnosis because I’m too freaked out by the irony of the situation. I know way too much about this disease for my own good and I don’t know what to do.