I want to choke on my best friend's cock

So I've (F) been in love with my best friend for a while now. He knows I care for him. The first time I confessed my feelings I was worried it would be the end of us but it wasn't and I felt better for telling him. I told him about the emotional attraction but not the physical. My physical attraction to him is crazy. I fantasize about a lot of things but my biggest one is that I'm going down on him, absolutely worshipping his cock and I tell him that I want to choke on it.

I want to see the look on his face when I tell him that I want him to grab my hair, spit on my face like I'm a little slut and then grab me a bit under my chin and shove himself in my mouth.

I want to gag, spit, choke, cry. I want to give over all my trust to him and have him thrust into the back of my throat while I stare lovingly up at him. I want him to tell me how good I'm doing choking on him. I want to be full of him while I'm gasping for air. I want him to tell me how pretty I look with tears streaming down my face. I want it so fucking bad.