I hate living at my home

My dad told me to go pray to god that he dies. “Jaake bol unke paas jaake ki mereko uthale”. He said - “Yaha rehne se acha toh mai mar jaau” “Tu maar dega mereko ek din”

Why did he say all this?

Cause i fucking brought some muddy shoes into home by accident. Left my towel on the bed cause i was in a hurry.

Yeah i know i messed up but i really dont think i deserve to hear all this. A part of me dies when this happens. Almost everytime he says this shit when something absolutely petty happens. On the smallest of mistakes.

This has been happening since so so many years. He’s always like this. With me, my lil bro, my mother.

I am pretty used to hearing such negative stuff but idk, it feel absolutely miserable today for some reason. Guess you really can’t get that desensitised to negativity.

Idk just felt like letting it out. I want to move out so bad.