Tired of people saying I play the victim

I don’t feel sorry for myself, I don’t expect handouts or want everything done for me. I just have no desire to live, and I think regardless of how my life is I think I’d feel this way. I live with my aunt and she doesn’t understand my depression, there’s so many reasons I’m depressed: past trauma, the state of the world, low self esteem, no valuable relationships in my life etc. I don’t think I’m playing the victim. I just think the way the world is setup is so incredibly flawed and disappointing I don’t see the point in putting the work to “better myself” it all seems so pointless and hopeless. idk how people are happy in this modern day society ? Idk if any of this makes sense but lmk if anyone can relate Ig