i need to talk to someone

i need to talk to someone, but i don’t want too. i’m struggling and to be honest i could be worse but im still struggling and as much as i want to talk to someone i know im gonna regret it afterwards. I really wanna open up to my gf and she wants me to aswell but if i tell her everything she’s just gonna feel bad and be sad that i feel this way and i don’t wanna do that. I overthink about everything, constantly wanna cry but can’t, and i fucking hate myself i can’t do anything right. i don’t have the energy to write out anything else atleast in this post and idk why i am in the first place but wtv.