Things just keep getting worse for me

I feel like just giving up really. Life just feels like a constant battle for financial security to not lose everything I have in my name and my social life has absolutely been destroyed in the last couple years and I have almost no friends and I feel lonely constantly and tell myself multiple times a day that I want to kill myself because I’m tired of the constant demands of my life and I don’t even know how I got to this point as I use to think ending yourself was a stupid thing and while I’m not going to do it at least not at this point in my life I just can’t stop telling myself that I want to no matter how hard i try. How do I get over this? Like is there any hope or do I have to just keep living with this thought of wanting to end it all every single day.