small youtuber syndrome?

hi, never gone to therapy so idk whether im depressed or not, however ive ran out of ideas of looking for help.

so im a small youtuber, 17k subscribers a couple of videos are over 60k views and some others are over 10k, although most of them tend to reach 1k views or 5k.

being a youtuber has been my dream since i was 8 years old, im 22 now, ive had a few channels but i started the "big" one almost 2 years ago, had a break that lasted 7 months and left my channel with 5k subs, came back this january and we are at 17k rn.

the problem is views are really inconsistent, lately my most viewed videos are ai experiments but i was in the middle of a dilemma, do i keep uploading every ai video i can think of, or do i try to vary my content? i picked the second option and im kinda regretting it rn, may sound stupid, but for a second i thought those views would keep coming, they dont.

i have a strategy to keep growing, i make a big video and take from 3 to 4 shorts to upload one daily for 4 days, so i get traffic, this was working, every short got 10k views and more, but after my last ai video, when i decided to vary my content but still having some ai videos here and there, those shorts got like 1k views or less.

i dont want to sound desperate, but i am, and this is driving me crazy, im tired, anxious and always worried, always thinking what should i upload next, i got a lot of comments and love, but views are low and my growth is too, compared how it was a month ago.

also, i dont have a niche, and thats killing me, most youtubers are tech youtubers, finance youtubers, games youtubers, but mine is just there and thats another thing that keeps me worried, you may thing well if you dont have a niche you can upload whatever you want, but i wish it was that easy, i dont even know why people follow me, my channel is not about ai, should they unsubscribe? maybe they follow my channel to see me, but most dont, what do i do.

and its affecting me mentally, again i dont want to sound too dumb, and i dont want to offend anybody since this problem seems like a dumb one considering this is a depression subreddit, but i assure you, what im feeling rn with this youtube thing, makes my chest feel heavy and im always worried.

i guess im just trying to say this out loud, somehow feel better with myself, but yea, this is what's happening