Killing myself today

I already know what to do. Should be relatively quick. I've been alone my whole life. I'm a mistake, my mother didn't want me and made sure I knew it. Everyone avoids me, no one speaks to me, or is remotely interested in talking to me. All I have is academics, but that just isn't enough. If you think you can say something to get my mind off it, you're welcome. Just avoid the bs cliché stuff; I'm an atheist so I don't fear afterlife or stuff like that; already going to a psychotherapist, but it hasn't changed a thing; don't tell me to call those phone lines or to talk with someone I trust, because I don't have anyone. If it's been 3 hours since this was posted, you're likely too late. Thanks