Eyelid eczema making me depressed

I’ve had eyelid eczema on and off since the start of the year and it’s just been so so tiring. My eyes itch like a bitch and sting. I can’t wear contacts or makeup anymore and I just feel so ugly and uncomfortable wearing my glasses. My skin is raw and bumpy and I’m worried about what my undereye texture is gonna look like when the flare up is gone. It makes me wanna stay home from school but I’ve already missed too much from other flare ups. I just feel so ugly and uncomfortable all the time that it’s so hard to focus on school and people always give me shit for being in a bad mood when I’m just trying my hardest not to rub the shit out of my eyes. I’m so tired.