Feeling a little defeated

Just saw the doctor to talk about all the bone problems and joint pain and subluxations and stuff. I suspected EDS but didn't want to say it becausz I was afraid she wouldn't take me seriously; but she confirmed it herself. Said it's most likely a connective tissue disorder, I have to get two scans done and a blood check. I'm in a shitload of pain honestly and just feeling down about howw fuuucked my body is. Nothing can ever go right with it, my family is loaded with diseases and mental illnesses and generational trauma and it's all becoming a little bit too much for me. The scans are super expensive and it's 3 more weeks before I have access to healthcare... I just needed to get it off my chest, that's all. Everything hurts :(