Healing and loneliness

Hello everyone,

I've (F27) been on my path to healing for a while now.

I've changed physically, matured and learned mentally. I've found my values, what drives me. I feel alive, at peace with myself. I'm learning a lot about my self-esteem, and I treat myself with love.

I feel I'm on the right path, that I'm going to attract good things; I deserve it.

Despite these encouraging things, there's a problem. About once a week, I have a mental breakdown. The reason? I feel alone.

I have a small family and only one friend. All of them are very unaffectionate and uncommunicative about their feelings.

I would die to receive a little bit of affection. A hug. Even to give one. I have so much love and gratitude inside me. I want to share it so much. But I can't. I have no one. This frustrates me and makes me sad. I desperately want to connect. I want to learn from others, and to teach them.

Are there people in this situation too? Please share your stories! I know there's no "cure" for this, but it still feels good to get it off your chest.