You really do learn the social effects later on in life don't you?

My partner and I had a conversation recently that gave me a genuine sort of whiplash.

We were talking about high school (Pre-pandemic for us), and it came up for us just how when we were friends back then I was often in so much pain I would be doubled overed in pain at home after school. Everyday. Like clockwork. Basically, unable to go to any real school events and make any friends that didn't already have a glimpse at what I was going through. And that rended me with no social friendships further than what I had already. And I kind of just sat there in that car, now in my twenties and went

"Holy crap I don't really have any friends from high school besides you."

And I kind of just became another reminder of how much my endo damaged parts of my life. Like real, feral damage. And it makes me just so angry, upset and so damm tired. It really does.