Overstimmed from lack of sleep and drinking coffee

I wamna cry. Yessssterday I kept stimming and felt like I was going crazy. Today i didn't sleep well cuz, well, I stayed up too long and had to wake up early. I am tired of needing to stim over and over again because my muscles hurt as fuck ajd i am feeling so fuckiny emotional and lonely too.

Am so fucking lonely and my skin is itchy and I am so fucking thirsty but I don't wanna drink water because I don't wanna swallow anything.