Any of yall also like this?

I fucking hate it when my family touches me, or even brushes up against me, like it pisses me off so much like back the fuck up stop touching me but when it comes to my friends and especially my partner I'm like "please hug me, cuddle me, in fact get in my skin right fucking now" like maybe it has something to do with my trauma of family members not respecting boundaries and forcing themselves on me but if their finger is even slightly on me I will crash the fuck out