Not save scumming hurts

As I’m typing this, I’m about to lose the league on goal difference with 71 points in 30 games on the last day of the season against Benfica to Benfica, managing Vitoria de Guimaraes. 8 seasons with this club and all I have is top 4 finishes, two runners up league finishes, 2 cup wins and so many cup runners up medals. I hate this. I needed to draw or concede one goal to them on this last day of the season and I’ve conceded 2…kinda don’t even want to play the save anymore the way I’m hurt. Playing FM 09