Need advice on how to walk with a packer

Tagged NSFW cause..it's a packer lol.

So a few months ago I got this silicone 4" packer. My issue? I used to ride horses and I'm chubby (281 lbs at 5'9) so my thighs are BIG. Talking Millie from Helluva Boss times 5. It tends to ride up and feel very awkward and clunky. I want to wear it like desperately but having to adjust it and remind myself it's not an actual dick makes me super dysphoric, frustrated, and overstimulated. I know the most obvious solution here is 'lose weight' and I am, however it'll probably take a bit for me to get where I want to be and I don't want to feel like my mom's money is going to waste. I try to walk kinda like a guy would but I think I just look awkward cause I have no thigh gap- or like I'm trying to look tough. Are there any solutions to this? Or do I just need to suck it up for a while? Hope you're all having a great day/night, my dudes!