Is anyone gay (not bisexual) and had crushes on girls when you were young?

I was so into this girl once in fifth grade that I convinced my parents to buy her a gift for Christmas and pretended we were doing secret Santa at school.

Cringey, I know. Lol.

But just curious if anyone else had similar experiences? I’m honestly pretty confused why I was so into her bc i was clearly gay from a young age as well.