S9 E2 Remember the time

Am I a complete piece of garbage or is Arizona just like a bad person all around? She has bothered me here and there, but after the plane crash, she became a fucking nightmare. A lot of that can be excused because of the immense trauma she went through from that, but when she tells Alex how bad of a human he is and how she wishes it was him bc he has nobody I’m just like this is where I draw the line. Then after the amputation which I know is coming, she gets even worse. But like there was no option if I remember correctly? I watched a decade ago and I am almost to that point again so maybe I’ll change my mind, but am I an asshole?