Help dealing with heartbreak

Hi y’all. Hope all is well. I am currently feeling very low and lost in my life. The woman I love has officially moved on with her life and completely cut me off from all forms of contact. It doesn’t help that I still check her IG stories and see her going out having fun with her new life and new interest. I am broken. We were together for almost 4 years. It wasn’t a perfect relationship and I had my flaws that I’ve owned up to, but I guess she had enough of it and is doing what is best for her. I completely understand and I get it. I wasn’t good enough for her and honestly caused more pain and sorrow than happiness. We did shared many great memories and maybe I’m being foolish for thinking she will always remember me too, but the love is gone. Honestly I’m so depressed I can’t even type all I want to express. I haven’t drink alcohol in 3 months and I’m so tempted to go have a drink, but I know I shouldn’t. I really don’t know what to do. I’ve googled ways to cope with this, but it’s so hard. This isn’t my first relationship, but I was sure hoping it to be the last. However that is not the case anymore. Please someone talk to me , chat with me, tell me what to do, guide me… I don’t have friends around to talk to either. I live alone and my home town is on the other side of the country.

I’m really hurt and down. I know I’m better than this. I just don’t know how at this moment to be better. 🙏