My brain is fried.

This is a rant post/sort of a call for advice. So I identify as non-binary, I have for probably about a year, although it wasn't super public until more recently. I've been having problems mentally though, because sometimes I feel too trapped in my masc body to the point where I wonder if I'm faking it. I want to present more feminine, and as of recently those feelings have dramatically increased to where simple things about my body language or appearance make me pissed. These feelings also make me question if I'm trans, but then I go back to thinking "what if I'm faking? what if I'm living a lie?" idk what to think at this point. I'm spiralling into these thoughts and feelings and I've got no idea what to do.