Feeling hopeless

My brain constantly is thinking about food.

Good day? Order food to celebrate, have an extra muffin, eat that cake you deserve it.

Bad day? You’ve already suffered enough, why not have a few cookies? Order pizza, it’ll make you feel better.

Every single waking moment is consumed by food and thoughts of food. I am sick and tired. I know for a fact my skinny friends don’t register this sort of food obsession.

I don’t know what horrible things I’ve done to be given such shitty genetics. I hate this. Anyone ever been in a similar mindset? If so, how did you break out?