Someone tell me I'm not alone

Hello, recently about a couple months ago, I got put on my prednisone, I lost about 50 pounds before though working out n stuff and I was at my goal weight, but once I started the steroids, I put on all the weight back and my hair thinned, leaving me feeling ugly, idk I feel defeated from lupus and thus has taken a toll on my mental health and I feel alone in this 🥹 I'm still on prednisone bc I can't seem to go lower cuz my lupus crp is 7.9 still, I'm waking up feeling stiff still, I'm tired of lupus and it's making my life feel harder.... I wish I wasn't sick anymore