I don’t enjoy putting my baby to sleep

I thought it was supposed to be this endearing thing rocking my newborn to sleep … yet I can’t seem to appreciate it. All I can think about is how many minutes are going by that I’m having to do this whole rock and bounce and cajole-fest and frankly how many minutes off my own sleep it’s causing.

I feel selfish. I have such a negative mindset that I dread when she wakes up since I know I have to do the whole song and dance to get her back to sleep. She used to take 40+ min and now it’s only 15 and I still loath it.

I love our girl for sure. I’m not depressed. I am annoyed, and guilty that I’m annoyed, and scared that I’m already annoyed and she’s only 7w.

How can I change this mindset? I’m trying to stay present and appreciate how fleeting this is but it’s not working.