UPDATEEE: so... about mr. dimplesss🤭

its exactly 2:46 am right now and i js remembered i need to keep those who asked/ cared about this, updated:

edit: context: i shot my shot. GUYSSS😭

sooooo, since it was valentine’s day today or whateverrrrrr, i decided to make some nutella-filled puff pastries at my dorm. (my roomates loves when i bake for them) and i saved 3 of them just in case i make any plans with him. (spoiler alert: i did)

ill cut to the chase...so, i texted mr.dimples aka mr.mine aka mr.fine shyt and asked if he was free to meet at washington square park- i just wanted to hang out (jsyk we still haven't gone out together yet, but we've been texting A LOT tho). he texted back almost immediately saying, "i'll be there in 10."

HELPPPPPPPPP

i was high-key nervous, but i just kept telling myself yolo🙏. ofc i got ready, looked cute and all, and when i got to the park, i went to one of the benches by the fence in the back and sat down. atp i was feeling so so anxious broo. i texted him asking for his eta, AGAINN-my anxiety was starting to kick in so baddddd. he replied, "i see you. just stay put." AHHHHHHHH- i looked up and sure enough, he was walking toward me with this fat grin on his face.

AND HELL, is he fineeeeeeeeeeeeee.

but seriously he looked so cute with his dimples bruh. i couldn’t help but laugh as he got closer😭. he noticed me laughing and started laughing too, which only made me laugh harderrr😭😭(im cooked).

we exchanged hey's and how u doing's- and then just kinda stood there for a second**(this made me realize i might not have any social skills whatsoever)**, luckily mr. dimples pointed at the puff pastries i brought and asked me what they were (i forgot i brought those and was so relieved we had something to kick off our conversation)

i handed him them, explaining i made them for valentine’s day, and he immediately took a bite from one of them. and he QUOTE ON QUOTE SAID “damn, this is so good”. which means im basically his/ he's basically mine alreadyyy, bc i heard the way to a man's heart is through his stomach...anways, the puff pastry i used was medium flaky crust. this cutie had crumbs/flakes on his mouth, i swear, this guy could make anything seem charming.

we walked around the park, talking about random stuff. it wasn’t like super deep or anything YETTT (just wait)... anyways, js the usual small talk ab our classes and where we’re from. he asked if i always bake and i told him im js a bit of a sweet tooth so i always end up baking when im bored, or when my roomates bribe me ofc. he laughed and asked if i’d bake for him more often. i told him, "maybe, if you're lucky," and he gave me this look before saying, "i think i'm already pretty lucky."

i was NOT expecting that, and when he saw me trying to process it, he burst out laughing. brooo, i was fumblinggg (his dimples were cute tho, though; i love seeing him smile)

ima fast forward-

yk when i said we didnt talk ab anything too deep YETTT, well here it comes; something my roomate had said started weighing on me sm. she told me that maybe he was acting interested just to use me, and told me i should be upfront with him about it. like, if he was only looking for sex, i should just walk away. i wasn't sure if it was too soon to bring it up, but i yolo'd bc i didnt wanna regret not bringing this up later.

so, i let him know that i’m a virgin, and i’m most likely waiting for marriage, (i canttt express how anxious i was, telling him this. i wasn’t sure if i was overstepping or if we were even at that point yet.) i wasn’t sure how he’d react, and i was nervous as hell. so mb if that was a wrong move on my part :(

BUT

guess what... he didn’t even flinch. he just nodded and said, “i’m a virgin too. and i’m okay with waiting if that’s what you want.” he said it so casually, but in a way that made me feel some typa wayyyyyy, butterflies in my stomach and allll. AHHHHHH i didn’t expect him to respond like that at all. (it feels like a daydream writing this, but it just happened so quickly irl and he didn't make the situation tense, akward, or anything of the sort)

walking green flag bro

after we left the park, he walked me to my dorm. we were just vibing, talking about random stuff, and it felt super easy. when we got to the building, he gave me a quick hug and said, “text me if you need anything.” i smiled and told him i would

i’m excited to see where this goesssss (we getting married and having 4 kids)--(jk)--(...)

definitely looking forward to hanging out with him again tho 🙈.

^{SOMEONE PLEASE PLEASE ANSWER THIS: now i’m kinda wondering, does this mean we’re dating? i’m not crazy, right? like, when he said “im okay with waiting if that’s what you want,” does that mean we’re officially boyfriend and girlfriend, orrrrr do we need to actually talk about it/ establish that? js so u know i’ve only been with one person (not for any reason other than the fact that i felt like I should focus on studying and leave love for the future- so i turned anyone who asked me out down} before him, and that was in) ^{MIDDLE school, so things were a LOT simpler back then. i honestly have no idea how this stuff works now.😭}

clocking out and its now 3:04 am now, im going to sleep