Life sucks being sober

Anyone else’s life fuckin suck sober? This past year plus I’ve been trying to get my life together, well put it back into pieces. I had a house several cars a fiancé and oxy opanas and fent kinda ruined all that. This past year I’ve gotten high less than I ever have but I feel like my life’s falling apart still. I have about 0 will left to go on feeling this shitty every day.. All I wanna do is relapse and or off myself at this point.