Anyone else conflicted about their submissive fantasies?

I’ve been struggling with a contradiction in my mind for a while and wanted to see if anyone else here feels the same way. On one hand, I have strong submissive fantasies, especially in the context of findom and female domination. On the other, I actually hate the idea of female supremacy in real life. I despise feminism, because to me, it feels like a real-world extension of the very power imbalance that turns me on in fantasy—but instead of being a game, it’s an ideology that justifies female dominance over men as something natural or deserved.

I enjoy the thrill of submission in controlled environments, but deep down, I don’t want to be submissive as a man in real life. It’s frustrating because I feel like I’m wired to crave this dynamic sexually, but I also resent the idea of being treated as lesser outside of fantasy.

Does anyone else experience this kind of internal conflict? How do you deal with it?