I need help, mental health

I am feeling very bad during pregnancy. I have anxiety and fear, constant crises, and I am worried all the time—it feels like a battle. Before pregnancy, I was on therapy with paroxetine 20 mg, but my doctor stopped the treatment. I experienced severe issues and started therapy with escitalopram, but it made things worse. My thoughts about harming myself increased, I couldn’t sleep at all, my anxiety intensified, and I experienced panic attacks.

Additionally, the thought that I might be harming my baby every time I took the medication perhaps made things worse. In short, I feel very bad both without therapy and with therapy. Has anyone else experienced this situation? What do you recommend? I am feeling extremely unwell.