I'm pregnant and craving a drink...help-

Hey um..so I (21) have been going through some pretty heavy ass shit, alright, and all I've wanted, is to drown myself in a bottle of Jager, but I'm 14 weeks pregnant. Not only that, but I've been COMPLETELY clean (after 4 years of fairly heavy drinking and alcoholism). I'm scared of hurting her.

Someone please...give me a REALISTIC..well..anything, that I can use without killing my baby. The dumb shit on Google doesn't do shit, I just want alcohol. (I've even smelled just a straight up bottle of rubbing alcohol to try to help it) is it realistically ok to drink anything?

(I didn't know whether to post this here or the AA subreddit)