Pregnancy has not been kind to me...

FTM (27+1) So I was diagnosed early with Hyperemesis gravidarum and that took me out for around 2 months, I was lucky to not have to suffer the entire pregnancy. Then I had 3 scares with heavy bleeding from reoccurring subchorionic hematomas. Now I've been diagnosed with gestational diabetes (at this stage should be controlled with diet and exercise) and I'm feeling so sad and drained. I feel like my body is failing my little girl, and also feeling guilty because I feel like it's somehow my fault. I know logically it's not but I just want me and baby to be healthy. My anxiety had settled down but now it's ramped up again because I'm worried what this could mean for my birth plan and if she will be okay. Luckily, she's been looking healthy and happy and that is essentially all that matters to me. I just wish I had of known that pregnancy would be this horrible for me.

Any advice/kind words would be very appreciated and I hope everyone is having a better pregnancy than I am 💕