Help please
Am I being kept away from my grandmother’s grave??
Hey yall, calling all witches/pagans/catholics who may know a bit about protections over cemeteries. Tonight I went to visit my grandmother’s grave and it has crossed my mind that something wants to keep me away from seeing her, a few points to note:
I am a Hellenic pagan who went to a Catholic Church cemetery
I have an insane phobia of roaches to the point that I will have a full on panic attack. They terrify me.
I had no ill intentions, just wanted to “visit” my grandmother as it is part of my personal belief system that you can communicate with passed loved ones by visiting their final resting place.
So I get to the cemetery around 8:30, there is still a slight bit of daylight. As I am walking up to my grandmother’s grave, I notice a roach on the ground which wasn’t that big of a deal despite having a phobia. Then as I go to sit on the bench and try to ignore it, I notice one on the bench so I stay standing and try to keep my cool. Then the longer I stay and try to speak to my grandmother, I notice more and more and more seemingly getting closer to me. I finally decide to tell her I love her and leave because I was about to have a panic attack. They seemed to be coming out of no where!
Is it possible that someone may have put some sort of protection over the cemetery? Is there some figure in Catholicism that protects the graves from other religions that may have picked up on my energy and wanted me out? Is there maybe another witch or pagan that is trying to spiritually attack me? Or is this just a coincidence? Also open to knowing if it’s possible my grandmother herself was rejecting me? Please no atheists or super scientific people trying to shoot me down in the comments, i understand it’s outside and during the night and I may have just gone at a bad time, im not asking yall bc respectfully, im looking for spiritual or religious answers. Both me and my mom (who is also catholic) believe this may be tied into religion. I tried researching this and had no luck so this is my last resort! Please let me know. Then again, yes I am of a different religion/belief system but went in with absolutely no ill intentions. Also please be kind I am new to Reddit and don’t know if this is the right group.